Better Than Never

An Introduction

Hello, here I am. Why am I here? I dunno, good question. I’m just trying to get away from everything in the world that’s so fucked and focus on adding something even mildly worthwhile back into it. Does the internet need more pointless voices throwing words into the endless stream of Stuff? Probably not, but they can’t stop me doing so anyway. It’s just me, and it’s just for me, but maybe it’s for you. Maybe a single word is worth something to you and that’s it but that’s what I’ve given you so it adds something minuscule to your life in some unnoticeable way.

I’m trying to do something cause I’m bored of not doing something. I’ve done too much something for them and now I’d like to do something for me. Maybe it’s something for you? I’ll write words here, and you can read them if you like. My creative writing degree says I had gotten pretty passable at it but I’ve gotten pretty bad at it from years of inaction and atrophy. This isn’t anything professional or commercial anyway. It’s here and now and then and later. It’s mostly silly, maybe sometimes serious.

So let’s get to know me. You can call me Never, He/They. I like horror movies, role playing games, punk music, and anime/manga. Some of my favorites of each include:

My favorite hobby is seeing bands play live. I love the combined energy of a crowd letting their frustrations and pain out together, bumping up against each other, shoulder to shoulder and elbow to elbow. We come from different places and mental spaces but become a part of the same flowing liquid like a wave in a pool. Our thoughts and worries drowned out by the overwhelming cascade of sound. Letting out aggression but sharing a love and solidarity with one another. Walking away bruised but inspirited.

I’m also exceedingly anxious about things, including writing and posting all this. It’s stopped me from doing so many things in my life. It makes me feel like I’m no good, that anything I would like to do isn’t even worth trying. I mean, maybe it isn’t if you look at it objectively but I don’t want to let my fucked up brain pre-decide that instead of giving it a chance. Just actually sitting down and doing this helps, so do the meds.

You’ll get to know more in time, I’m sure I’ll get to know more in time as well.

So welcome, come in, enjoy, and leave when you like.